hell...

Even during the worst of times, I have not been in a state of "HELL" caused by any specific person. The simple answer would be my ex-boyfriend, but looking back the things he did were nothing in comparison to the level of happiness and fulfillment my man gives me now. Any time I have been down in the dumps or hard on myself, the only person I can blame is me. I allowed myself to let meaningless events affect the way I feel, when really the answer to my hell would have been to just pray about it, and let God lead me out of the situation. I'm learning to rely more on HIM, than myself in many situations....and that, I believe will prevent any Hell interfering with my life here on earth.